How stupid am i

Saturday 11/12/10

my mum was day off on that day....
after the chit-chat, we decided to go out together
so, i absent to the badminton game
i am very sorry to my friends that i was absent to the game....
i thought that was a judgment....

this mistake show to me that i was a very careless person...
how can i survive in the future with this attitude ....
how careless am i !!
i think if a standard 6 student will laugh at me if he/she was on the spot

i knew this was my fault....
but i cant forgive myself until now....

before this i was so arrogant....
i always thought that i can have a bright future
will this mistake as a warning to me ??
Ask me to be very careful and do not be so careless next time....

i cant even do this task completely and want my mum to help me to "bo wok"
it is just a piece of cake .....
i cant even do it well~

sad... i hoped i can forget it but this was already deeply imprinted in my mind
i hope i can !@#!#@$%@#$
i also dont how to do....
haizz....